Not an update I ever wanted to write

I started cramping and spotting again yesterday afternoon. After hours of phone tag with the IVF clinic I went to the ER. After spending 6 hours there it was determined that both babies are miscarrying and there is no reason why or anything they could do. I had let the couple know what was going on and they sat up all night waiting for news. I had to make the hardest phone call ever to them early early this morning. I sat with my phone in my hand for so long and couldn't make myself hit send to call them. My heart was breaking having to tell them. I went to the clinic this morning and the Dr there confirmed it and wants me back Thursday to make sure my levels are going down. We will try again in a few months but that doesn't make it any easier. My heart is heavy today and I am so sad for the couple and myself.